When I realized I couldn't get pregnant.

My husband and I got married in 2007, he was in the USMC so at the time we lived on base Virginia. We never tried not to have a baby, from the moment we got married neither of us used any firm of birth control. While living in Virginia, I remember a few of our other friends getting pregnant and I remember thinking briefly "Why haven't I got pregnant"? With my husband being a Marine, I was not to concerned about it because I knew I wanted to move back to Ohio before we really started tryin. (Again, we never really didn't try). In April of 2011 we moved back to Ohio when my husband got out of the Marines. Now let's fast forward two and a half years....still no baby! At this point we begin wondering if something might be wrong with one of us. We make an appt with a well known Reproductive Doctor in the area, at the appt (and many tests later) she informs us that although my husband's sperm count was really high, some were not shaped the correct way. She also tells us that she would like to do a DNC on me and to remove a polyp that she has found. She starts me on birth control so I do not get my period for three months before my scheduled surgery date. All things seem like there off to a start and then BOOM I get laid off, losing my health insurance. Although I found a great job about a month later, I still had to cancel my surgery for the time being due to no insurance coverage for another 90 days of work. A few months later when I am all settled into my new job, I called my doctor back and she informs me that she will not do the surgery until we do all the testing over again. WHAT?!?!?! I had already paid her so much for the other tests and now she wants me to do them over?!?!? Yah, that wasn't happening! Upon a conversation with my cousin, she gave me the name of her Reproductive Doctor and that leads me to where I am today! Please stay tuned to see what happened next (and no baby yet...still!!!!) I will also be posting to give perspective of some of the "fun" tests you get to go through with infertility!!

That moment when you're the only one not getting pregnant!

I get it!! You look around and everywhere you look someone else is pregnant, in fact it seems like you're the only who's not. How about that moment when your best friend tells you she's pregnant and although you're SO happy for her, the moment you're alone tears start running down your face. How is it so easy for some people to get pregnant and the hardest thing in the world for you? I ask myself these questions every day! Then you see young girls who are still kids themselves getting pregnant or a mom on the news who has done something terrible to her kids, yet she continues to have more. It's so hard to understand, but when you are going through infertility it seems like it's something you always question. I have learned that these are things I have to try to not let get to me and to just keep praying and taking the steps I am taking to make my dream of becoming a mother come true. You should do the same, try not to stress about it because that will not help you get pregnant. I wish I could give more advice on this but I still struggle sometimes understanding this myself!

A little bit about me and why I'm making this blog.

My name is Tiffany, I'm just your average girl from a small town in Ohio. Growing up, I always knew I wanted to be a mom. Like many young girls, I had lots of baby dolls that I would tend to. I always dreamt that one day I would grow up, marry the perfect man, have the perfect house with the perfect children. Then reality hit, although I have the perfect husband with a gorgeous house I have no children. I have truly been blessed in most aspects of life, however, at 28 years old I am still left standing here wondering why I cannot get pregnant. I decided to write start this blog; 1. Somewhere for me to put down in words what I am feeling because the pain of a negative pregnancy test month after month becomes torture! 2. I did not see anywhere else online where I could truly relate to someone going through this as well. I want to be a place where people can come to that they can find a story or someone they can relate to because infertility can be so frustrating, emotionally exhausting, and completely devastating at times. I want people to feel like they can share their stories or not onLy infertility but the happy stories of when you finally beat infertility! I plan on sharing my entire journey with you all who are reading this, but that will come with time. In the meantime, please feel free to share your stories and to give/receive advice to those who need it!